Monday, January 4th, 2010
I’m trying. Not hard enough, but I’m trying. I just can’t muster up the — dedication? enthusiasm? inspiration? — whatever you want to call it, to work on one. I have ideas. I can currently think of four ideas off the top of my head for games I want to make. I can open up my IDE … but when it comes to writing the code, I hit a brick fucking wall.
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Wednesday, October 7th, 2009
I constantly ask myself what I am doing with my life and where I intend to go. In fact, I ask myself this question multiple times throughout the day, more than anybody should ever have to. It is depressing and not fun. Not at all. Well, due to some recent situations at work (which I will talk about some other time), I have decided to pick up where I left off. Well, decided to try, anyway.
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Monday, September 28th, 2009
It’s been hard. Anybody who has been in, or is currently in, the same situation can tell you. So many what-if’s. So many questions. So many regrets. So many depressing nights. Sometimes I want to pick up the phone and beg. Sometimes I stand firm by my decision and tell myself that I am strong and can cope. Usually I find a way to tell myself that I am wrong, no matter how I look at it.
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Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009
Why did I quit World of Warcraft?
I had all these lovely images of freedom in my head. Being able to do what I want. Hanging out, not being locked into my chair at the computer all night, having the ability to do random things, etc… but that’s all they were, it seems… images.
I’ve quit the game totally. What have I lost by quitting WoW?
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Wednesday, August 19th, 2009
So I finally saw Yes Man last night. It kind of felt like I was watching the last 5 years or so of my life. Perhaps even my life in its current form, as well. Basically, it’s a guy who passes up every opportunity to do anything and has been stuck alone and in the same dead-end job for far too long. He eventually started saying yes to things and his life turns around for the better.
This behavior is just all too familiar to me.
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Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
FIRST!
Oh … well … shit. Maybe I will put more use to this thing. I mean, I put the work into it, might as well make use of it, right? Perhaps. It never seems to work out that way for me. I always tend to make projects for myself, but never follow through with them. I cant count the number of times I have done this – in programming, web sites, music, graphics, etc… You name it, I’ve started and not finished it.
So … here’s hoping.
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